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What did I ever do to you…

In Life on December 15, 2004 at 5:00 am
Date: December 14, 2004 9:00:00 PM PST
Subject: What did I ever do to you…



I’m not one to blog about depressing stuff…

But I am seriously depressed, and I don’t blog about this to get comments or any reaction, because most of the people that read this, this blog isn’t addressed to them…

But alas, I feel deeply betrayed…

I’ve been cut out of the loop for what ever reason…

I feel like I’ve been a bad friend, but thats not the case…

I cant see how I’d wronged anyone…

its a terrible feeling…

And now Im stuck in this world of blaming myself…

when in fact I don’t think I’ve done anything to hurt anyone…

Why do people want to hurt each other people so bad? What good can become of it…

Christians hating christians should not be so…

I guess in the end nobody cares about anyone but themselves

[edit: Im addressing human nature here, and that we should over come this… ]

I used to hold each of you my friends in the highest regard, and rejoice in the fact that I had what I thought was such good friends…

But somewhere down the line I’ve let you down, or hurt you, and caused this great exodus…

But in fact my only crime was supporting you and being faithful to the end…

My friends, why have you become so arrogant in your thinking?

What makes you so sure that YOUR right…

in everything you do….

And how you hate others and especially your brothers, when the only difference is when they think differently than you…

and you hate them for it…

And you mock openly to no end…

How does this further the kingdom of God?
And some of you even take pride in these qualities…
this is a terrible thing…

My friends, you play with fire, your doing things that you think are cool…

But they are only going to destroy you in the end…

Even the smallest sin, when full grown STILL gives birth to death You think your strong enough…

thus that is your problem…

WE ARE NEVER STRONG ENOUGH…

My Friends, Your arrogance overwhelms me…

This and all others dishearten me to no end…

so much that I cant get anything done, because they hurt me so…

I do not judge you without meaning, because I myself am judged…

And I am guilty with going along with you all for so long…
And not speaking my heart and the truth to you as I do now…

I long for our brotherhood again, but Im afraid I will have to wait until you’ve walked this dark path to its end…

But I will be waiting for you…

Now I am guilty as well, as we all are…

But I repented of my ways, and desire a God fearing life…

I pray you will come to the same end…

Im sorry I was a terrible friend, if that be the case…

and Im not too proud to admit my wrongs…

Address me with the truth and will confess my wrongs…

And I will make right what is wrong between us…

I forgive you, as you forgive me…

-DAVE